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21.1.12

Reef Night Walk

I hope someone still reads this blather I miss you all we walked an adventured; pretty cool.

29.12.11

28.12.11

You put dog with huge balls and search gets more.

People; you are screwed.

hey Hi Wake the hell up

Yeah I am still here wake up get a grip; enjoy life and say WTF assholes once in awhile.

Cuz I say it every freeeeeeking day.

Its cool.

Sorta.

21.12.11

Merry Christmas and all that jazz

Howzit. Thats like the most common hello here. I wish all the happiest holidaze. Sincerely. Been slogging along thru the flotsam that is a deteriorating relationship, a messed up economy, and shit that well, sucks. But I fervently hope that all that have perused these comments and shit on our life here in aloha land have a joyous holiday season. Go out and stoke the shit outta somebody. Really.

15.12.11

About time to bid aloha

Pretty much. I really have enjoyed it.

15.11.11

Our dog has huge balls and other shit

Hey! How the hell are ya world? I'm pretty well fried w/ APEC OT and all kinds a shit. But WTF I wish you all well.

Just kidding - I'm still insane.

16.10.11

Holes

I'm digging as fast as I can. And refilling as fast as I can also. It is almost comical how many things have taken wrong turns for all of us here in this land of Aloha. I mean for crying out loud it is amazing. If it wasnt for the precious faces of the boys + Kiana + Mai; I donno, I think I'd lose it. It has been just 1 thing after another after another. I see the glare of the many many mistakes that I make and continue to make. Thats a bit irritating. The worst part about any of this whole FUBAR is that it brings me so far down; and I dont have the time for being depressed. Dont have time to seek knowledge of myself and question why feelings conjur up distress of that sort. Mai comes home Tuesday; and parents as well back to Honoka'a. I mean I am trying as hard as I can to see light and see positives; the only focus comes with continues workouts + continuing home work on the house; thats OK and all that but it doesnt fill the holes; the holes that gape and tempt from losing the oldest son to drugs and stupidity; kicking the boys and the girlfriend and Mom + Grandaugther out; failing miserably in communication w/ my other; and standing firm at things that needed to be stood for w/ her. Gimme a huge set of waves; gimme a fire burning hot; gimme broken bones. heart attacks and disasters; gimme shit I can fix. Just quit making me sad.