23.10.08

Today.

There tends to be times when things are as difficult as can be. You know how when things come in threes? Or when that one fricking spot don’t come out as in some stain? Or perhaps it is the interpretation of what you said that isn’t comprehended by the other that you are speaking to?

WTF?

Yeah that’s what I mean.

You know there are days that come in droves; those days when the influx of crap is undeniably un-defendable. There is no way you will defeat the crap attack. There is no way the defender of the goal will keep the offending offense from scoring at will; cause “It aint gonna happen, Jules.”

Yeah that’s the ticket; you can just sense the downward spiral of intoxicating fluids coursing through your veins, adept at avoiding the sanity indicators. Every stop light you come to is red. Fucking 8 minimum grocery line has the new cashier, the one with 3 fingers and smells.

Fucking karma.

Oh but it isn’t karma, dude. It is not, cause you be living right, eh?

No it aint. It is just the fucking way shit happens. Shit happens. People fucking die. And your loans don’t get approved, and fucking shit happens, man.

You get responsibility placed at your dining room table; and you ache at the chance to prove to yourself; ANYONE, that fucking shit don’t happen this way. That by doing right, by trying, by giving it that good old fucking college try; that shit wont happen that way.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

It jives to the left, you jump to the right, and you man the fuck up. Well, yeah maybe.

Quit the fucking whining, and see the fact of the matter as you are fucking lucky, you are fucking blessed, you are fucking breathing, living, loving, existing in this “Lipstick on pit bull” fucking world.

(What the fuck is with that? They garrans ballbearings don’t have a fucking Pit Bull)

Quit the fucking crying ass shit.

Because I was in charge today.

Yeah and it was OT.
And during that OT we had building fire, a overturned Kayak, a HAZMAT incident, a inaccessible brush fire, and assorted dramas. Before it was 12:30 in the afternoon; when I was to get off.

We also had the 911 call from a firefighters wife that he had hung himself in the bathroom; listened to her cries and pleas for help and assistance; her begging for the neighbor to help cut him down, and his heartless “I have a bad back”. We had to notify the chiefs, and assorted critical incident stress de-briefers. He coded; and died.

And now I am at the fucking Hotel; listening to the bitching of people over 13 dollar burgers.

Aloha.

Hug someone.

7 comments:

Jennifer said...

Yeah, I'd call that a shitstorm.

'Bout five years ago, maybe, I read about a $40 hamburger somewhere in Manhattan. Round up all the cry babies and send 'em to New York, where a cold wind's blowing, the air stinks like diesel fuel, the beach is covered with trash, there ain't no aloha spirit, and you can get a $40 burger.

I'll hug YOU, Mark, howz-at?

Little Kenny said...

Yeah you get a virtual hug from me too brother. Ouch.

Don't worry I'll be taking your advice and Mrs. LK will be getting a hug too.

~lk

alan said...

Hugs and thoughts of peace heading your way!

alan

Angeline Rose Larimer said...

Hugs all around.

So sorry about the firefighter.
That's brutal stuff.

Anne said...

just remember-you da man!
x0x0x

Angeline Rose Larimer said...

OBAMA DID IT!!!!

(If you're anywhere near where his grandma used to live, could you drop a flower in her honor for me? Thank you.)

fineartist said...

Some times life puts things into perspective for us, in a really fucked up way, and we can't make sense out of the fucked up part, ever, but we do glean from it that some things are really important and some things, just aren't.

I'm sorry your day was so fucked up brother, and again, I thank you for what you do, because there aint no way in hell I could do it.

That sounds so trite what I just wrote, and just dippy but it's true, peace, Lori